When I found out I was expecting I was so thrilled, scared and shocked. We were told we were done having babies. I called my dear Friends Sabrina and cried. She told me take it easy, things will be OK. Go tell David. I was so afraid to tell him. I got him a card and left on the dresser for when he got home. He was thrilled and surprised. We had a few scares early on and thought we may loose this pregnancy as well.
After a few months we told our friends with a cute pic of the girls saying big sister.
Months past and all was well. We found out it was another girl. I had diabetes with her and high blood pressure everything else was perfect. Finally the day came she was born, thrilled she was here and theneverything changed.
Shortly after her delivery the nurse walked into our room and took Samantha. They said she needed blood work. She brought her back then another nurse came in and said the same this time we need to test for downs. I was still, David was gone and I couldn't speak to say what do you mean.
We left the hospital with Samantha a few days later no wiser of the results or anything, just some harsh works from a nurse about being a good parent.
We had to meet with a genetic counselor who confirmed her diagnosis. What was I going to do?
Sabrina and Kara were a big help. They said she was just a bit special and God wouldn't give her to our family if we couldn't handle it.
I cried for days and days. Asking myself what did I do wrong? Was this a punishment? How will her life be? No one has asked if anything is wrong with her if they noticed. Now I' m realizing it but I still have days were I cry. She melts my heart like her sisters do.
She cries, she smiles, she sleeps, she's active and she's a daddy's girl.
she may be a little slower than the other kids but she's our little gift from God. Yes Samantha has Down syndrome and it scares the hell out of me not knowing what her future will be but I think I have some great friends to help me and support us along the way.
Congrats on starting your blog for your family! I am sure you will enjoy writing in it and journaling events and photos about your beautiful little girls. If your computer has "Windows Live Writer" you might find it useful for blogging ... it helps me put photos right where I want them! Blogging is also a good way to meet others, especially other parents who are blessed with special babies like Samantha. It helps to be able to share and talk. Love and hugs to all!
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